Came across the following quote:
When things don’t go your way, when things go “wrong”, and especially if you do not seem to currently have enough money, do not attach a story or sense of self worth to your circumstances. ( on December 5, 2010)
My circumstances at this time suck and I feel so down about myself because of it. The hardest thing I've had to do in a while is take this quote to heart. I've always felt I had "potential". Yet, it's not realized at this moment in my mind. I know my circumstances could be worse, but I want them better before it hits even lower. I will not allow what I see around me reflect my worth on the inside. I've worked very hard in order to set up a foundation to make my life NOT suck. So, now it's up to me to make sure I put these elements to work for me.
When I look back on this time in my life, I will marvel at the love I have for my daughter because that's the main thing keeping me going. She makes me want to do better, so I will. It's just going to take some time and though I've always been a patient person...my current circumstances is testing me. For real. Testing me BIG TIME. I want things to be right for me and my family NOW. I want out of this apartment NOW. I want a GREAT job NOOOOWWW!
...However, after having opened and filed away my third rejection letter THIS WEEK from the numerous jobs I've applied to recently, I'm not going to get what I want right this minute. According to my file, I've applied to 100 jobs. 100 JOBS! I'm talking everything from cashier to bank executive. Nothing has panned out. I'm scared and frustrated, but I have to hold on to my faith that something will work out for our best interest (my daughter and myself).
That mantra I've quoted above is one I need. I must live it and take it to heart because right about now I'm frustrated and scared about my future. I earned my MBA back in 2008 and ten years earlier earned an undergraduate degree from one of the top schools in the nation; however, I sit in my living room on the computer planning out my "pavement pounding" for the week.
My daughter is my inspiration. She looks at me as though I can do no wrong. I'm not going to let her down.
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