This will be my daughter's first Christmas and I'm so excited. This has been a really rough year and as I mention many times to any who actually listen, she has been my bright star throughout this turbulent time. Yea, it's a cliche, but it's true. Eleven months old and she's is the best thing to ever happen to me.
What am I getting my daughter this year? Her first Christmas present from her mommy?
I have no idea.
I know that she's getting lots of "stuff" from her grandparents and aunties, but both of her parents are broke as hell. I mean...broke as hell. Checking that list once, twice...three times won't help my budget. I'm glad she's so young because it would break my heart for my daughter to ask for something I can't give her. That's life though...I didn't get everything I wanted as a kid, but I wanted to do better than my parents did for me. However, we had great Christmases growing up...I want the same for my daughter. That's why it was so important to me to put up a Christmas tree. My first as an adult. My baby's first in this lifetime.
Our tree is beautiful. It belonged to my mom (she had about three...Mama LOOOVED Christmas lol) and I even used some of her decorations on the tree and to decorate my front door. She had so many decorations saved up from purchases over the years, I'd bet I could have done my entire tree with just her stuff...and I had plenty of decorations left in the bag that I did get from her house.
My baby woke up from her evening nap as I was decorating the tree. I lit it up and brought her into the living room to see it. She cracked up in glee. That made me feel so good...It made her happy and she seems to love it. Whenever I bring her near the tree she does the same little chuckles and just stares at it. I can't wait to tell her what Christmas means. That way when she feels that warm feeling and chuckles with absolute glee at all the lights and decorations, she will know what it all means and why everyone feels that same lovely spirit.
Perhaps that's the "gift" I can give her for Christmas. I can start her memories of happiness and love at Christmas time...and teach her how to keep it throughout the year. Mommy needs help with that...so, it will be a great way to teach her as I learn myself.
Yea. A little cheesy, but that's how I roll. :)
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